For a long time I felt out of place, out of touch, and to be quite honest, not of my generation. Growing up, I was always drawn to being outside and exploring nature, and truly connecting with Mother Nature. Little did I know, it was more to the bigger picture and my future! I'd see crystals, and beautiful rocks everywhere, never truly knowing what they were. I was never drawn to any of them UNTIL I became an adult. It seems like it was yesterday when I was in a deep depression, and prayer alone had run it's course. Don't get me wrong, I believe in God, but I knew there was more that I should be doing to pull myself out of this unfamiliar funk. That's when I met Citrine Queen! My very first crystal that pulled me in like smoke in a hookah! She was literally far across the room not in plain sight at all. That's how I knew she was mine! It seemed as if everyone had looked over her as if she was a used rag doll, and was priced extremely low for the size she was. She was perfect, and well within the little budget I had at the time. Keep in mind, I knew nothing about crystals, the difference between them, what was "raw", "tumbled", "geode", NOTHING! All I knew was that this gorgeous rock had my complete attention, and I couldn't leave without it!
Once I got the Citrine home, I promised myself that after I prayed, I'd allow myself five minutes of my own time every morning with this rock. I wouldn't think about anything else but this rock. What it looked like, estimated how much it weighed, why was I drawn to it, all types of random questions. If I couldn't solely think about the rock, I gave myself permission to think about absolutely nothing. This is how I started my meditation journey. Don't get me wrong, it was very difficult to only think about a rock or nothing. After several weeks of guessing what this Citrine was and nothing, I allowed myself more time in the mornings. This pattern continued until I was up to thirty minutes every morning spending time with the rock and myself!
After four whole months of waking up early spending to with myself and the Citrine, I found myself getting physically active, and allowing myself to truly breathe! All of my negative thoughts that I once had about myself, and my situation at the time seemed to seep out and be transformed into something positive! That once five and thirty minute session that I used to have, turned into an entire hour of me AND my family working out. There was also a designated ten minute session of thanking our mind, body, our mothers, and mothers' mothers, and our Creator just for the ability! The ability to do the small things, the ability to do the more complex tasks, and the ability to be of service! It was beautiful!
The change was so drastic, that people started questioning what my family and I were doing to get so healthy, active and overall be full of life. After answering that same question over and over, it got me thinking about what started the overall process. Then it dawned on me that I got my Citrine! From that one decision, it led to my entire family being active and spending more quality time together, a garden in our backyard, business opportunities, and the depression that I was in had completely left my mind! How was this possible? It never occurred to me that I had never looked up what Citrine was, or if it had healing properties. All I knew was that Citrine Queen was beautiful, and she was mine!
Here's the kicker! When I looked up Citrine, my expectations weren't really high in relationship to my situation. To my surprise, the first thing I saw was, "Citrine does not hold or accumulate negative energy, but rather transmutes, dissipates, and grounds it, making it extremely protective for the environment. It works out problems on both the physical and subtle levels, transforming negative thoughts and feelings into positive ones." In my mind, this had to be a coincidence, so of course, I had to keep digging! Then, I ran across,..."an excellent crystal for interpersonal relationships. It smooths family or group problems and promotes solutions and cohesiveness." At this point, my mind is racing and I'm ready to learn as much as I can about this crystal that chose me!
After reading several books, articles and blogs, I knew for a fact that this was no coincidence! It was clear that Citrine Queen and I were destined to find each other and create a beautiful future that would change not just my life, but the lives of those around me! I can say for a fact that Citrine opens the higher mind to accept joy in your life. It also releasing anger and negative feelings, deep-seated fears, and destructive tendencies. Citrine actually did this for me, first hand! She was and still is an excellent crystal for overcoming depression, reducing the sensitivity to criticism and inspires creativity and self-expression. Citrine Queen helped me raise my self-esteem by letting go of the past, and move forward optimistically, enjoying new experiences and explorations, i.e. the garden, family meditation and work out sessions, etc.
Don't get me wrong, it's great to know what all a crystal is used for before getting it for yourself, but trust me, it means even more when you're naturally drawn to one and later finding out what its healing properties are. In my opinion, you remember what the crystal's healing qualities are more vividly when you have your own personal experience with it, instead of using someone else's research and information as your point of reference. This is my gained experience with not just Citrine Queen, but all of the other crystals in my personal collection. Having a fun or interesting story behind each crystal really works for me, and could probably help you as well on your ongoing journey. Citrine Queen is the beginning to my crystal journey, I'm sure your story will be or is just as amazing.
Sending love, light and the ability to manifest the shit out of life!
Chelanda